My Days...

Christmas Bash...

2004-12-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

Yoz...realli have a great time yesterday at church coz we are having our christmas bash...hahaz...cool right. realli have not been writing my blog becoz of some personal problems...things still have been ok so far. wondering wad will happen in 2005...but haven come mi alreadi think so much...ahahaz. today the whole day i am staying at home...playing com,watching tv and stuff... quite bored. tml intend to go out...but dunno go where...maybe town ba... hahaz... hmmm. think i also abit tired...yupyup. today have been playing and singing one song...erm.... the title is "Just Let Me Say" this song realli touch mi...yup...realli love this song alot....hahaz...okay...think i talk too much below is one part of the lyrics which i realli like alot...yupyup....Godbless....Takecare...Nitez!!!

Just Let Me Hear Your Finest Whispers
As You Gently Call My Name
And Let Me See Your Power And Your Glory
Let Me Feel Your Spirit's Flame
Let Me Find You In The Desert
Till This Sand Is Your Holy Ground
And I Am Found Completely Surrendered
To You, My Lord And Friend

Back From YI Camp...

2004-12-19T11:42:00.000+08:00

Yoz....finally back from camp...realli have great fun in the camp in a way but also have some stress and struggles in the camp. the camp was realli great as the morale and the program realli are veri veri good...things realli run well for our committee. realli glad and realli want to thank God for the good weather that he gave us.JuZ want to say Good job GUYS!!! yupyup... realli feel burnout and veri tired after the camp....slowly get back my rest...hahaz. but i gotta say its realli a real good camp..yupyup...noe alot of ppl too. think i should stop here le...ya. Takecare...Godbless...

2004-12-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

hahahz...This is my TEAM!!!! TEAM 13 ROX!!!! this photo we took also in the mission trip and it is the last day where we are staying in the village...yup. Love This Pic And TEAM!!!! hahahahz....TaKeCaRE!!!

Mission Trip Photos...

2004-12-09T20:42:00.000+08:00

Realli like this photo...hahaz. we took this picture in missiontrip...i feel that this is the nicest photo...hahaz..cool. izzin it...hahaz. From left, Anathan, Grace then MI!!!...

A New Fresh Look...

2004-12-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

YoZ!!! a new fresh look of my blog...cool rite...i knew it...hahaz. in the afternoon abit nothing to do then go internet explore then find a website can change layout of the blog then mi go and click click here and there...hahah..then choose this layout for my blog...i find it quite cute...hmmmm. today actually whole day at home...yup...takecare of my Grandmother and accompany my family too. i feel that need to spent time with them as i 10 days not at home when i am in missiontrip...next week got camp so is another week i will not be seeing them...so realli got to spent time with my family. feeling realli stress...coz need to get alot of things done...yup. hope that everything will be over soon then i can have a good rest. YawnZZ....think i going to sleep le...Ciao...byebye...GodBless!

Woah....Back From Mission Trip

2004-12-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

hmmm...since a long time i realli realli update my blog...think my blog go rusty liao hahaz. yup.... juz came back from mission trip and its is a veri veri good trip there. realli have fun and even experiencing God in a different way..yup. my team is veri fun...hahah. everyday in the van will play guitar and sing song and even got techno...hahaz...thats cool. realli thankGod for this team. May God continue to bless the rest of my team mates and even guide them through trouble times...yup...Yawn...quite tired and now veri sick...hmmm...but got to share abt my day today first.today realli have a great day with da jie... 10 days without contact...hmmmm...realli miz her alot. hmmm...realli cannot ta han liao...Nitez...GodBless

Holidays...Cool...

2004-09-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Wooohoo...finally school holiday starts. been busy for so long finally got a 1 week rest...hahaahz..thats cool..realli long since i update my blog...hmmm..still need to plan for tml kampong daze 2 thing for my tribe...so i don think todae i will be sleeping early...actually was in HY tribe as a member but TS call mi up and say that he cant make it on that day so i take over him as a tribe leader...hmmm...first time being a tribe leader, feeling abit excited and scared...hehe. tml should be veri veri fun and hope that everything goes well...yup...hahaz...todae finally is the submission of the project work that i have been doing for weeks. finally i handup the project and everything is settle an now finally can relax...hahaz. recently have been thinking on a few things and issues... feel that sometimes even i tell ppl wad is my reasons behind doing this or that thing, they don't realli seems to understand but they will say all these are excuses even i explain super clearly to them...but realli hope that they will put themselves into my shoes or even better if they can feel how i am feeling...hmmm...but its okie..yup..think i shall end here and go and do my things...tml is a new day...and hope things turn out to be better...yeah..hahaz.

A Faithful Friend

2004-08-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

Someday I hope with you to stand
Before the throne, at God's right hand,
And say to you at journey's end,
"Praise God, you've been to me a friend."

Looking Ahead and Running The Race...

2004-08-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

Things have turn better...started to pray and to do my quiet time and realli focusing on God...I Thank God for all this things he has done in mi. recently juz came across this verse which says...Brother i do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing i do: forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead,I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13-14)... this verse has realli encourage to press on and continue to run the race for God...though i may tripped and fall during the race but i feel that i cant let this affect mi...i need to press on and run the race until i see the finish line...coming across this verse mi think of da jie and wad she is going thru and i shared this verse with her to encourage her...hope that verse will realli encourage her and may she continue to run this race for God even Stronger! I Thank God for answering my prayer... recently started to feel quite tired again....hmmmm...maybe lack of sleep... school has been normal...oni juz recently doing my project and didnt have realli much ideas of wad to do...hmmm. juz tok to edmund...think i realli have lost touch of most of my frendz...heard from edmund that he is doing well and is fine....hmmm...glad to hear that. mi also ask edmund that how is some of my frendz doing...and realli suprise to get all kinds of answers.... some of them have bf and gf some of them backslide and stuff.... hmmm... sometimes mi realli dunno...but wad i can do is to keep them in prayer and be there for them if they need help...yup...hmmm... realli hope that i can get back all my energy coz now rather burnout...hmmm... wondering tml have training!? hmmm...kk..think i should stop here...hmmm...byby...

Still Deciding and Juz Cant Focus...

2004-08-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

Things recently are still okie... school is still same... recently realli thinking of brigade and floorball becoz i still in the midst of deciding which will i choose and serve...maybe from other ppl view is sure that the answer is Brigade becoz you are serving God as well as his ppl...and the advancement of his christ kingdom...hmmm... but for my view i realli dunno becoz there are lots of things happening in brigade and it is realli not easi to make a decision now...becoz there will be a great change in brigade... thinking hard and prayng hard...haiz. even when the change take place it may not affect mi now but i realli dunno wads going to happen in the furture...hmmm. Some how i feel making this decision is not easi...haiz.. realli also going through a period of time which i realli cant pray well as in i am always distracted when praying...dunno y this will happen and this problem seems is a veri serious one...coz i use to be close to God and i can realli tok to him anytime and anywhere...i would always pray even on the bus when going home but now it seems that this thing is going the another way round...juz cant get focus...hmmm.

Having Test...

2004-08-05T10:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm...juz do finish my test. rather hard but it seems easi...hahaz.has been veri busy these few days coz need to do alot of things like project and others. Dad go to Jakata for some overseas business trip then oni left mi and mother at home...mother has been always going out too and i sometimes return to home quite late like yesterday reach home at 8pm...the house rather cold and quiet...Da jie thanks for the encouragement that you gave mi yesterday for the test todae...hahaz..i noe my xiao mei has been worrying for mi these few days but XIAO MEI need not worry about your ah kor coz HE IS ALRIGHT YA?!!! hahaz...having training later at 4.30...guess todae mi returning quite late also..todae should be a veri tiring day...hmmm.....

A Hug...

2004-07-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

A hug is a place to feel safe and warm,
A comfort for a sad heart that is torn;
An expression of the love in our heart,
For ones who we wish, never to be apart.

Juz Come And Go...

2004-07-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

Since a long time that i write in my blog...hehez. feel that i am beginning to draw further from the ppl which are realli close to mi. In life some ppl juz come and go...maybe juz a passerby in my life. Even how close to the person you are with eventually will drift further apart from each other even without knowing it...haiz..sometimes feel that i am still a small child...need ppl around to takecare and dote mi...but i juz too tired to think abt these things ...

Juz Another Day...

2004-07-14T21:24:00.000+08:00

tiring day...was not realli feeling too well todae perhaps i lack of sleep. hahaz...but i think is okie, hmmm... will be okie tml..hahaz.school was fine learnt quite afew things.taken bus home from my school, realli was a long journey and feeling tired on the bus...but juz cant sleep so think abt somethings. saw my ah mei...hahaz...still looking blur blur...hahahz....mmm...muz realli think and try to plan my things and get them organized in a way...coz now i have quite a number of things to do and somehow dunno which should i start off with. realli have not been toking to alot of ppl recently as in realli tok... there is a feeling i am drawing further from them in some ways. i feel that i am too busy with my own life and did not realli hang around with my frendz... it seems i am living a life on my own and did not have realli alot frendz now... hmm...but its okie...hahaz.

Getting Back To Work Again...

2004-07-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

wah...suddenly some many ppl post inside the tagboard...hahahz.todae is a day which i release from the school the earliest..hahah..started at 8.45 and around 9.35 liddat go home...hahah but mi still yawning!!! hahaa.have breakfast with my frendz and we r toking alot of crap there...hehez. todae there is a brigade meeting in the afternoon which i have attended... i have taken up 1 activites and 1 camp to plan and i feel that it is a good thing for mi... realli want to put my best in planning these two things. realli tell myself that i should get everything started lyk school work and BB and spritual life and MORE!! juz get back to the normal mi and get back to work...hahaaz..indeed is a wonderful day todae. have dinner with ah seng,boon,yang.. they are realli great guys man!! hahahz...realli have a fun and enjoyable time with them during the meeting and the dinner... realli have a good chat with da jie on saturday...its realli long and its my first time ever tok to someone so long...hahahz i think 3+ hrs if i am not wrong ...hahahz.. realli tok abt alot of things and realli enjoy the time toking to her on the phone...hahaz...qiu shi zhe yang le...hahahahz.. :D

Confusion.....

2004-07-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

today is a day that confusion keep on coming in my mind...which make mi so terrible and uncomfortable...everything is juz not right for today...i realli hate this. realli hope that i can have peace in my mind juz for a few minutes but i juz cant....alot of things keep on coming into my mind like cellgrp...school and family and more..i am realli confused and i dun noe wat to do i am so troubled by all this things...though i noe i need to make a decision for all this things that is in my mind but i juz cant think clearly....arhhhhh...i am realli guilty to treat da jie this way that i did not tok to her for the whole bus trip...wad a bad attitude of mine. i am helpess and hopeless...

Ups and Down...

2004-07-09T20:02:00.000+08:00

have been a week since the school started...have ups and downs. hmmm...i think is normal. actually i am going to meet rx todae for dinner but he did not contact mi to tell mi weather is he free then i assume that he is not free so we did not have dinner today. wish to tok to him abt releasing mi from 4T1 cell matters but maybe todae is juz not the day..haizz...recently feeling quite down maybe becoz of this and maybe i am too tired. yesterdae there was a leaders meeting...a normal one. towards the ending rx ask us weather cellgrps leader there have any prayer request for their cell, everycell leader said their prayer request but i am the oni one which keep so so quiet and i did not say out becoz i realli dunno wad to say...i think that day i realli have too few words to say abt that...yup...school has been great this week realli click with my frendz veri veri well although we have not meet for 1 month but my school life is realli boring becoz its realli have been repeating each day by each day and everyday it will be the same and doing the same thing....realli trying to study hard for this whole term and strive for 2As but i noe its veri difficult but i muz try 2...thought of going to the place where i go usualy when i am down or sad tml after nitelife...hmmm. below is a so call poem that wrote for myself...

behind every smile of yours is sorrows
behind every laughter is pain
really wish to know how you feel
i will know that you will say you do not know
but i am sure that one person do know
which is the person that sees your everyday
be beside you everyday, guide you everyday
which is GOD...

Thinking Again

2004-07-06T19:29:00.000+08:00

think i have been thinking alot these few days...maybe i am person which realli like to think ba...deep inside mi some how there are somethings which i felt veri uncomfortable with...which is cell grp. realli praying hard and thinking hard to make a decision weather should i tell rx to release mi from this cell.but if i leave this cell somehow i will feel i am veri irresponsible to the others... they are my friends and do i think that i want to c them backslide?! mi realli dunno wad is my decision... sometimes realli wonder y am i smiling all the time when i noe i am veri sad or even hurt... maybe this is the way i am...

Tiring Day

2004-07-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm...today is a veri tiring day and a day i almost went crazy....hahahaz. in the morning(7+) one of my frendz call mi to eat breakfast at the market which was near my home with him then i am still in bed when he call..so thought of having breakfast with him so told him i will be there in 7 mins...hahaz. after that i went for my bb parade... the parade was good becoz i can see the sec 1 boys again....realli miz themmm soooooo much...hahahaz. after parade mi and one of my frendz help to give out the uniform parts and the uniform to the sec 1s..hmmm... was rather quite messy around the place where we give the boys the uniform parts and i almost went crazy...because the boys are rushing us or rather quite impatient with us so we also rushing to settle everything quickly and get things done. the boys are veri funny when they put up their uniform...hahaz..coz some of them their size are small yet the uniform is alot more times bigger than them....i gotta say they are realli funny guys...hahaz. finally everything is done...then mi and frendz went for a simple lunch...hmmm...its realli simple, juz a cup noodle and a bottle of soft drink...hahaz then play soccer after that...realli have a good time with the boys. went late for church but did not miss the sermon part...hehez. went back home together with da jie and teasing her all the way...hahahz. realli a tiring day but i can say ITS WORTH IT...hahaz

stand up and walk again from the place where i have fall...

2004-06-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm....first time writing a blog dun realli get use to it coz i prefer to keep things to myself rather then let people noe ...but i feel that i need to make a change this time round... hahaz. have been realli down these few days...not in the mood to do anything and too tired to move around and spirtualy dry ...very very dry...and have not been sleeping well these few nights...receive encouragement from both my da jie and xiao mei but i juz ignore it and treat as nothing. hmmm... i have not been praying for these few days until yesterday i prayed... i ask God alot of things and i even blame him for alot of things too... i told God sometimes i juz hate you but sometimes i love you .... i told him everything single thing that is in my heart..i have lose faith in God totally and realli hate him. today i receive a msg from da jie which says:"usually tough times wil come after u've been blessed in some way, or received a promised from God...n its up to you to choose whether u wana stand firm or not." i ignore this msg at first but i took a second look at the msg...the more i look the more i will go and think abt it...and i have spent my whole afternoon thinking through this msg... i dun have the courage to face God becoz i told him i hate him so much...i realli wish to stand firm but i cant do it... while surfing the net, i come across a msg which says "Some of us have wandered away from our Father’s house, and it has brought us near the point of death. Our hearts have hardened, and our spiritual bodies look as lifeless.
But our Father noticed we were missing and is searching for us. He can take our lifeless spirits and restore us to health. Let the Father pick you up and take you back to his house." this msg realli speak to my heart and i realli feel sad and guilty that i say those words to God and i believe which make him heart broken... this is the msg that make mi regain my faith in God and Stand Firm for him....i realli thank my da jie for this msg that she send to mi which realli makes mi think...but now i realli feel the peace and joy that God gave mi...through this few days i realli learnt something...